as per title.. am staring at my PC screen.. but mind is blank...
Don;t know this is dream or real... alive or dead... felt floating...

And no.. I am NOT on drugs...

And yes.. already had 3 cups of coffee...

Hey JL ...u better take it easy dude...too much caffeine.....don,t forget ur wedding is coming!!!

u should be glad and think of ppl around you....like ur family and of course LGTC!!

hmm, u want nice girlz pic to wake u up,hehe..

(as what u kutuk in other post... )

go steady bro....chill out....try to relax bro....

Normal behaviour when nearing leaving bachelorhood. Your impending marriage is playing on ur mind, whether u realize it anot.

Either that, or you change job.

PS. I hope ur serious about this, Johnnie...

to johnson can lah....to other muslims please no, no, no,,,,,it's ramadhan bro...

i can only think of 2 things i.e cold feet or mood disorder(depression)

u hving PMS ah? Pre Marriage Syndrome...

aku tak kutuk la wei..gurau je,jgn la merajok..posa2 ni xelok merajok,hehe (OT a bit)

http://www.depression.com/types_of_depression.html

Depression-Related Mood Disorders
Major depressive disorder, commonly referred to as "depression," can severely disrupt your life, affecting your appetite, sleep, work, and relationships.

The symptoms that help a doctor identify depression include:

constant feelings of sadness, irritability, or tension (What I felt now)
decreased interest or pleasure in usual activities or hobbies (What I felt now, no mood even to think of DIY.. and even no mood to think of pretty girls lah Axenophage... )
loss of energy, feeling tired despite lack of activity (What I felt now)
a change in appetite, with significant weight loss or weight gain (What I felt now)
a change in sleeping patterns, such as difficulty sleeping, early morning awakening, or sleeping too much (Wake up very early)
restlessness or feeling slowed down (What I felt now, keep walking about with a lot of thoughts)
decreased ability to make decisions or concentrate (What I felt now)
feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness, or guilt (What I felt now)
thoughts of suicide or death (Luckily.. nothing of this sort)

btul btul..cannot la give this (the girlz pic) JL,hehe..

You are not alone, brother. We are always here to support each other

hehehe...

ok, back to the main issue... i normally lock my room, close all the lamp & take a good nap...

told you so...u want me recommend smtg?

Yeah.. a few people said this...
dunno lah.. My mood really bad these days.. yesterday just threw a dining chair and broke a HUGE antique photo frame at home..

Johnnie... ur not depressed if u can do a search on "depression".

Just to motivate u : I have donut Stinger (accidentally, on Sunday nite)... go out now n try it on ur ride. It can b done and I believe it can be controlled. Go go go... nia seng, ur just bored la... go out n hv some fun la...

JL..wooo.. but i'm so sure u r not d 1st..most of us felt d same b4... 4 me reasons contributing to this situations..

1.money/credits
2.work/boss
3.women/love/sex
4.family/relative/fren

my escape plan...

1. let it out n share with yr fren- u r doin rite now..kudos.. at least u not keep inside
2. find a close close fren.. this need sombody that can understand yr situation... meet him/her..
3. try to list back all those sh*t that bothering u rite now... and please write down yr strategy 2 overcome that..
4. always be calm and think +ve (means..prob always occur..)
5. last but not least .. if we believe in God.. pls ask help from Him.. (for muslim..maybe all these time we forgot Him..)

just my little little concern bro.. any +ve u may take it.. if not..just ignore it bro..

wish u all d best... take it ez..tackle it 1-by-1...

cheers!!!...

Hi everyone.. thanks a lot of the advise and cheering up..

Just came back from meeting.. halfway thru the discussion and all... as usual, my mind got crazy again.. I think.. I will be leaving office sharp later.. go to Car Audio shop.. get a nice 1500W amp and hook up my 2 x 12" Subs lah... will tap from the rear speakers thru a Hi/Lo convertor... see how... energyless... somemore.. gonna spend money agian ? later wife chop me up.


Falcon,
I wanna sleep.. but no time to sleep ler.. :(

Rev,
I cannot go drift yet.. later tayar botak = stress... if i crash = MORE STRESS...

Zahang,
on the escape plans..
1. Yeah.. weirdly, this is the first place I thought of to share this emotion
2. Close close friend.. they are all busy people.. don't want to bother them..
3. List down.. hmm.. almost like your list on top especially 1 and 2.. all related.. all depending on one or the other
4. I used to be always +ve.. I think my grounding too much now.. all Ground to -VE already
5. yeah... i think I neglact God for some time now... that's kinda scary.. especially a dream I had last week.. on what will happen to my afterlife... SCARY man..

I know u mentioned somewhere..Whenever u feel like this, u love to do DIY,heehe..do what u love man

but sit back in my cube.. i felt like SH!T again.. energyless..
hmm.. maybe I go join my friend for a smoke and TCSS for a while..

wah.. thanx 4 sharing yr cube hehehe.. seems un-organized...

my suggestion: get out from there.. go get some drinks.. or..spa..or relaxing aromatherapy massage hehehe..

hi hi !! smile abit lah okie .... just take a rest ... sleep more and i also very depressed leh ... really no mood but still have to smile and keep going ... lol ... gambarimasu !!

in the words of tupac - through every dark night, there's a bright day ahead...

My way of depression therapy...take a ride in the gt on a hiway, whack kau kau to 200km/h, so much adreline until depression is gone liao

don't take your dream easy bro...it could be a revelation from God. a "second chance" perhaps....:)

hmmm.. after work..

I went car acc. bought a 1500W amp.. a Hi/Lo audio convertor.. some speaker cables.... Some Neons... Feeling kinda satisfied...

Then, went for dinner.. kinda like a feeding frenzy.. Ate Nasi Ayam + pedal + fish ball soup... then 2nd order Sotong Kangkung and some Mee Udang... Reached home Drank milk, ate 2 pears and 1 apple.... then now eating some sotong gelek... and driking Orange Juice (wife blended it)...

hmm.. still kinda Hungry.. and still feeling damn low... No energy to install my amp and all that.. so now.. staring blankly at the Notebook Screen again.. at least.. feeling 20% better than in the office.. bugger...

Take a shower. Lock the doors and windows. Shut down everything. Take wife upstairs. Hug her. Ask her to tell you stories about when you first met each other. Tell her how much you love her and how important she is to you. Sleep well, and I guarantee you that everything will turn for the best when you wake up tomorrow.

er... not sure if I can do that.. she will push me away and say "You got FEVER ah ?? "

Hmmm....how about u drive down to KL now and we have TT here

I can join hahaha...
kind of shock when I see you suddenly becoming so depressed. I mean you dont usually have this problem in the past

bro, just look for someone in the office that you don't like and is under you, juz score them kau kau whenever thing that they do is not up to ur standard.
that's what i'm did

hhahahahahahahah...canot tahan bro! even my wife say i siao ar luff until so loud...

was reading ur post then.....kakakakak

this is not how it suppose to be. Not going to solve the problem and lead to even bigger problem.
You are not doing yourself a favor if you do this.

food is the best medicine. that's how i get my weight.

jl, i think by this time your wedding stuffs should be pretty much settled or decided already. so take it easy.

and i am stressed!!

Bro, me ain't no Doc ........ Just to share with you, do consider a Foot Reflexology. It helps to relieve the tensions built up ...... one session a week is good. It may be of some pain/discomfort during the initial rounds, but it does helps to point out the "problematic" areas. You will be pleasantly suprise that you will sleep like a baby after the sessions.

Hope it helps ................. Cheers !!!

Hey Bro,

Is there somebody else that bothers you? A female?

You are not having major depressive disorder. It needs a duration of 2 weeks or more - sadness/low mood (if i am not mistaken) for you to be categorized into it.

Stay cool bro.

Regards,
strike961

working in dell, does tt to ppl really... dat's y i left, 2 yrs is all i could take...
moreover you're nearing your wedding day, adds to e anxiety.
just chill out n relax, after yr wedding, things will settle down n you'll b yr happy self in no time

take care buddy... u got no suicidal tendencies yet right, then u r fine

Hello ALL !!!
Thanks a lot for the encouragement and support...

I took a day off yesterday... did some cleaning at home, cook myself a nice meal.. watched a few DVDs and a few episod of CSI... today, woke up a bit better..

Did not have the chance to DIY the GLS as my wife drove it to work :(

Glad to hear that you are feeling better... Take care of yourself and look forward to the BIG day!

Congratulations on your upcoming wedding!!!!

glad to see ur getting back JL... and didn't know our club got so many motivational gurus...

and if u think ur cubicle is messy, see mine and this is after i cleanup a bit

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HUA !!! Nice XPS !! You are my MASTER !!! I will start cleaning my Desk today.. Heard that it is very important for health, feng sui and all that crap..Thanks TokyoGirl.. and yeah.. just booked my Honeymoon, it will be in KK !! Hiking Mt Kinabalu ... But not so soon lah.. only in March.. hahaha

terion.. the pic after the cleanup rite? lol...

Don't forget to look me up when you are in KK! And better start your jogging/training now if you want to be able to make it all the way up the mountain to see the magnificent sunrise!

Good to know ur back to ur regular jolly self, Johnnie! :)

Next time feel depressed again, just go watch some pr0n! Hahaha :)

hmm... these photos just gave me an idea on a new topic...

http://forum.lancerzone.com/index.php?showtopic=2885

Quick update.. I finally installed the AMP I was planning to do to reduce my depression issue.. hehehe
DIY Subwoofer installation with Amp


and hmm.. let me post up my Cubicle.. after I cleaned it.. hahha

welkom back JL!!!.. LGTC needs u hehhee..

JL, make sure your 'lutut' tak longgar eh after 'intense' honeymoon welcome back JL